January 16, 2013

Some boys are trouble

i think all girls can agree that taylor swift has a way of taking our thoughts and feelings & putting them perfectly into words & songs. i don't know how she does it but it happens. this post is going to be a compilation of t.swift's songs that captures my exact feelings at this moment in my life. 

I'm sick and tired of your attitudeI'm feeling like I don't know youYou tell me that you love me then you cut me down
You could write a book on howTo ruin someone's perfect dayWell, I get so confused and frustrated
And here's to you and your temperYes, I remember what you said last nightAnd I know that you see what you're doing to meTell me, why? 

You have a way of coming easily to me

And when you take, you take the very best of me
So I start a fight cause I need to feel something
And you do what you want cause I'm not what you wanted

I've never been anywhere cold as you

You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray

And I stood there loving you and wished them all away
And you come away with a great little story
Of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you

And I heard you moved on
From whispers on the street
A new notch in your belt
Is all I'll ever be
And now I see, now I see, now I see
He was long gone when he met me
And I realize the joke is on me

I knew you were trouble when you walked in
So shame on me now
Flew me to places i'd never been
So you put me down oh
I knew you were trouble when you walked in

When your saddest fear comes creeping in
That you never loved me or her or anyone or anything

I realize you love yourself more than you could ever love me
So go and tell your friends that I'm obsessive and crazy

So watch me strike a match
On all my wasted time
As far as I'm concerned you're 
Just another picture to burn

it's best not to mess with boys you know are trouble. there is a reason people in your past are no longer in your future. trust yourself that you knew what you were doing back then. sometimes all you can do is hope for the best for them from a distance. there is only one person that can control your life and that person is you. even when people manipulate, abuse, & put you down you can chose to walk away and be unaffected by their actions. that's my new goal for the upcoming weeks. chose to act and not be acted upon.

January 9, 2013

everything has changed

change in one thing in this life that is always consistent. we are meant to grow, learn & become different. but just because change is an inevitable part of life.. it doesn't mean that it's easy. actually, i believe change is one of the biggest challenges in life. like i mentioned in this post, january is so very different. its a brand new with brand new memories ready to be made.

oh how true this is. its always interesting at the beginning of a new year to look at where you are now & then reflect back to year ago & realize how different your life was. 2012 will be a year to remember. i have met amazing people that will change my life forever. my relationship with my best friends was strengthened and continues to grow. others have fallen out of my life as their role in my life came to an end. & then i rekindled old friendships with those i never even realized i missed.
“It's funny how someone who was just a stranger last year, can mean so much to you now. It's terrible that someone who meant so much to you last year, can be just a stranger now. It's amazing what a year can do.”

this year i want to keep the friendships i have & make many new ones. i vow to blog more often. i will try to be a little kinder to everyone in my life. i hope to keep a positive attitude even on the days i am discouraged. i will be passionate & fearless. i will study more & work hard to make my dreams a reality. i will not repeat the past. i will try to remember that everyday is a new one. i will try to only use my words to uplift and comfort. i will be quicker to kneel.  i want to become more christ-like in all the things i do everyday.

2013 is a new year to become a better me. here we go.